Stress...

Another month comes and goes.  I find that the faster Jaycee grows, the faster life seems to move.  As the pace quickens the stress of life seems to increase.  As our adventure continues, I am learning that doing day to day activities isn't as easy as it was pre baby.  Just to go out I have a list of requirements that sometimes take longer to prepare than the actual trip would take.  Needless to say, I haven't been getting out much.  Lately I have been letting the stress build and I often have to remind myself that I am so lucky to be here at home with my little girl.  I have to stop and think about how hard my wife works everyday to take care of our family financially and then she has to come home and be super mom.  When you feel like the walls are closing in on you, it makes it hard to stop and put things into perspective.  I have spent some time thinking about the truths in my life that will ground me and set me straight and I have found that every truth is about my wife and my daughter.  Then the cycle completes itself.  I love my daughter and I love my wife.  I take care of my daughter everyday out of love and I love my wife for allowing me to have this little angel in my life.  It's funny how we can let the little things take over our thoughts when we lose sight of the big picture.  You know, I am learning more about life from Jaycee than I was ever able to learn on my own.  I can't wait for my next lesson.  Now who could be stressed with so much to look forward to?...  

Yes, it's official: I'm a dork...

A few days ago, Jess and I decided to go out to run some errands.  Since it takes so long to get Jaycee ready for an outing, we usually like to do all our errands at once.  Now I'll be the first to admit I have never been the fastest at getting ready to go.  On top of that, I usually forget things.  Needless to say, Jess always follows behind me and picks up the slack.  Well on this particular outing I was in charge of Jaycee.  I must say, I did pretty well.  I got all her stuff packed and didn't forget a single thing.  As for myself... let's just say I missed a few things.  Like grooming and proper clothing.  Being at home with Jaycee all day is wonderful, but Jaycee doesn't exactly let me know how I look.  It usually takes someone commenting on my 'grizzly' appearance before I remember to shave.  On this day, Jaycee neglected to tell me that I had been wearing my painting pants that had a hole in the rear about 9 inches long.  Whoops.  That is when something occurred to me: I'm a dork now!  I have made the official step into parenthood.  I don't care how I look, as long as my baby is happy.  Even with this knowledge, I don't see things changing any time soon.  After all, being a dork isn't so bad.  Sometimes I do dorky things like wearing my shirt inside out all day or putting my underwear on backwards only to figure it out when I REALLY have to go.  Then on the other hand I do dorky things like dance around the house to Neil Diamond with Jaycee in my arms and both of us laughing.  Or I stare at her while she is sleeping and wonder what I have done in this life to deserve such a wonderful, perfect, and beautiful little girl.  Or I look at Jess while she is holding Jaycee and I think about what a great family I have in front of me.  That is when it hit me;  if that makes me a dork, I'll wear that proudly.  So the next time you see a man walking through Blockbuster Video with a hole in his pants the size of Texas, maybe you should envy him and not pity him.  He just might be the luckiest and happiest man you will ever meet...